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So, I was browsing my little sister's LJ the other day and ran across this. It appears to be some sort of card fight that runs between people. Depending on how many people you beat, your level increases. I think it's sort of funny...

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

to fight crysalie enter your username below

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I'm so tired right now. Is anyone else getting tired of receiving e-mail messages? I think my brain is ready to explode, if it hasn't already. (Heck if I can tell at this point.) That's what I get for being a member of so many Yahoo! Inuyasha groups revolving around the Fanguild. But still...I'm beginning to hate checking my e-mail! Every single time I log in, I have like 80 messages built up. Partly because it's gotten to the point where I don't want to check my e-mail, so by putting it off build-up occurs. Gah!

Anyway, I guess I haven't been on this journal in a long time...I'm not exactly what you would call a faithful blogger. :P And for a while there, I was becoming a little burnt out on life. I don't know, I just kept escaping everything through a reading outlet. I read Interview With the Vampire by Anne Rice and another book called The Knight and the Rose. Both were good, I suppose. But neither was really my typical reading style. It was nice, however, to be able to read an actual book. I haven't had the opportunity to do that in a while.

*sigh* And despite my love for the series, I was becoming burnt out on Inuyasha. I love the series, but I suppose all the fanfiction and everything didn't inspire me for a while there. I was even considering resigning as moderator at the IYFG at one point. I think in part this was due to the fact that I was in this slump. I used to be so sure of myself and what I wanted to do in life. I wanted to teach...but now I'm not sure what I want out of life. I'm just so disgusted with many things surrounding me at this point. There are just so many to list and I don't have the energy to list them all now. >.<

On the bright side, I got an iPod nano! :D I was extremely happy about that! And my first credit card, ever! I have that, too, now.

-Crys

Current Mood: tired

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I know a certain someone already did this, but I figure I should represent... :P

The Inuyasha Fanguild, where I moderate, is currently looking for people interested in screening nominees. In general, we're just looking for people who are willing to weed through the nominations we receive each quarter and pinpoint the stories whose grammar, capitalization, presentation, and other mechanics of writing are such that should be DQ. We're trying to level the playing ground...

Anyway, we're in need of a few more individuals. So, if this sounds like something you would be interested in, apply! (You have to be a member of the IYFG, so if you aren't and you are interested, please join!) The following is the application, which can be sent to either Ren (inuraku5@aim.com) or me (crystal_whistle@yahoo.com), if you are more comfortable.



> Applicants will be asked follow-up questions. (The follow-up is a sample screening report for a couple of fics.)
>
> Name/Nick --
>
> CYA Statement -- (this is to say you're over 17, those under 17 can still apply but we can't have them read adult matterial)
>
> Are you an author? -- [If you're an author provide links to works you
> have written.]
>
> Are you a beta? -- [If you're a beta list authors and titles you have
> beta'ed with links.]
>
> Preferred Categories -- [List at least 2 but as many as possible and
> in the order of importance.]
>
> [A few paragraphs about who you are and why you want to be in the
> Quality Committee.]
>
> A major requirement of a screener is the ability to be unbiased, to
> treat each and every nomination equally regardless of its author, its
> pairings, etc. Are you willing to do this, even if you're assigned
> categories which were not within your preference? What are you willing
> to do to curtail whatever biases or preferences you might have?
>
> If a conflict of interest arises, would you be willing to screen the
> work of a fellow member of the QC? Would you be willing to submit a
> challenge if that work contains challengeable offenses? And if that
> work is DQ'ed, what would be your gut reaction?
>
> Another major requirement is time: do you foresee any difficulty
> obtaining the free time needed to screen nominations?
>
> Do you foresee problems with the system and if so what would be your
> solutions?



Thanks for hearing me out! :D

-Crys

Current Mood: determined

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So...I really do still live. School started up again last Wednesday, and it seems like forever since I've actually been able to sit down and relax. I've either been: a) Running around in preparation for starting the fall semester at my university, b) Dealing with schedule changes, c) Working, or d) Showing my friends around campus/helping them out. For the past week, I haven't even really been on the computer...

And schedule changes were a nightmare! I swear, I think I changed my classes around like five or six times, just trying to achieve the perfect schedule. (And now I actually owe my university almost $300 because I added an extra class in the process...to where I am now taking 16 hours. Financial aid was already used up...)

Anyway, lately...my dreams have been unsettled. In the past two weeks, I've woken up, only to realize that I had dreamed about an old friend (who I haven't seen since New Year's Day). I only remember one dream, but every single time there's always this sense of lingering sorrow or guilt. It's hard to describe, I mean...I've done nothing wrong and yet these dreams always leave me feeling ashamed. I suppose what really bothers me is that I've known this friend since second grade...we fallowed each other to all the same public schools, and we remained in the same Girl Scout troop from second through eighth grade.

Most of my younger years, she was always there. I guess a part of me feels a sense of loss or responsibility for the severed bond we inevitably concluded our friendship with...sometimes I do find myself thinking that perhaps I could have (or should have) done more to save our friendship...but I always end up convincing myself otherwise. People inevitably change over time, no matter how we wish otherwise. To be perfectly honest, while I'm on this whole contemplative reverie, I should've seen this coming. Starting back in my Freshman year of high school, we were already drifting apart. By the time I reached my Senior year, I didn't really know much about her and she sure didn't know much of anything about me.

*rolls eyes* I swear, my mind is a strange place. It's as clumsy and ditzy as it is confusing and illogical.

I, my friends, am a strange person. The other day I had someone at work ask me if my boyfriend was abusing me because I have this huge fist-sized bruise on my arm, which I unintentionally inflicted on myself. I swear, at the rate I'm going people probably think I'm making everything up, when I'm not! :P (And you haven't even heard about the Jump Roping Incident. Have you ever heard of anyone spraining their ankle by jump roping?)

And now, I leave you with the following to amuse your curious minds...

( Hey, you! Yes, you!...Do I look like I'm talking to anyone else? )

-Crys

P.S. Do forgive me if my words are unlegible or you had to endure senseless babble, I should have been in bed, sleeping, hours ago. Hmmm...oops?

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I realized today that I have officially reached a new low in my life. Don't get me wrong, avoiding things can be healthy and are necessary to a certain extent, but I think one must draw the line when they proceed to hide in a floral cooler.

Okay, let me backtrack for a moment and explain a few things.

About mid-June, I started a new job in the bakery of my local grocery store. Things were going well, I was finally getting the hang of my job, and then a big atomic bomb planted itself right in the middle of my work in the form of a guy named Billy.

Now, in order to understand the event that lead to this recent 'floral cooler' incident, I must explain a few things about myself. I'm not like a lot of people. I was raised in a very protective, restrictive environment. Thus, whereas most nineteen year old girls have probably experienced parties, alcohol, drugs, sex, and even had a list of boyfriends (or at least one of the previously listed things), I have not. I'm a virgin in every since of the word-- eyes, ears, body, and soul. I have never had a boyfriend. I have never kissed anyone. Obviously, this means I have never had sex either. In fact, the closest I've gotten to somewhat knowing what is involved in the process is fanfiction lemons. And it took me months before I could read those without blushing or feeling guilty. For the most part I'm Kagome, schoolgirl in every since of the word.

And believe me when I say, I hit a rough period where I felt inadequate in many ways because of my upbringing. Just imagine what it was like entering college last fall for me? Now that wrecked havic on my mental state and self-esteem, in itself. For months I couldn't stop myself from gazing around and thinking, 'All these people are probably so different than me, into parties and all that other stuff. No one around here is like me...I'm alone on this college campus.' I even used to get depressed because I had no boyfriend, wanted someone to love me like that, and probably would never have one.

Anyway, the point I'm trying to make here is that I am not familiar with the whole dating process nor having guys around. It's okay if guys want to be friends, but once they overstep the 'friend' intention, an inner alarm goes off within my head. The process always goes as follows: A) Become friends. B) Daydream over whether the guy could be potential boyfriend material. C) Discard idea after personality traits conflict with my morals. If the guy has an interest in me and it's not just wishful thinking on my part, the next step is fulfilled: D) Guy steps across 'friend' line, I become uneasy, scared even, and quickly I instigate the avoidance tactic. Cutting him out of my life all together. Essentially I'm running from the issue.

Now, keep in mind the above is for guys I originally knew. Imagine if it was for someone I didn't know from the start, or don't know that well? Things are much worse in that case.

Thus, we head back toward my original topic that lead to the floral cooler incident today. For a recap: I started working, things were going fine, and then Billy drops a bomb in my lap.

What happened was...the day we meet, he's stocking beer. (He works in Grocery, which is just stocking all the food/beverage articles they sell in the store.) I noticed someone left a bottle of beer on one of my bakery tables, so seeing how it bugs me when things aren't in their proper place, I kindly proceed to return it to its home. I pass him on my way, as he is stocking things on the same isle I'm heading. He jokes about how I shouldn't be drinking that, I tell him I've never had a sip of alcohol (and I'm not even old enough yet). Then, he asks how old I am. Now obviously when he found out I was close to his age, little lightbulbs went off in his head. Hours later, as I'm in the back retreiving boxes from the freezer, he catches me and asks if he can have my phone number. "To get to know one another better, and become friends", he said.

'Leave me alone!' my mind was screaming. I swear, my heart was beating so fast and I was seriously uncomfortable. Anyway, as things turned out, I ended up reluctantly telling him that I would have to think about it. He originally wanted to give me his number when it became obvious I didn't really want to give him mine. But as I departed, a jolly 'I'm patient', was his reply.

Pretty much what ended up going down was, the next day he approached me and asked again for my number. Straight off the bat I told him no and that I pretty much didn't want anything to do with him. His response was basically 'I'm patient, I'll keep trying'. Thus, I told my managers. They claimed it was harassment, and promptly told him to leave me alone. (I'm not really sure what exactly they told him...)

So, today, my 'new low' consisted of me hiding in a floral cooler for fifteen minutes, waiting for Billy to leave the back area I had been in. I no longer feel like meeting him face to face, and in my effort to avoid him and run away from the situation, I stayed in the cooler in wait.

Like I said, I've reached a new low. Avoidance has been taken too far this time, but I don't know how to cure myself from this problem. Amazingly enough, for those who've read Del Kaidin's Broadway Bound, the part where Kagome's mother claims her daughter has a phobia of love and commitment hit a string in me long ago. I seriously think that describes me perfectly.

*shakes head* I'm so pathetic. Do me a favor, and please don't act any different around me since I've revealed all this? I hate it when I reveal my inner-most traits/feelings and people start walking on egg-shells because I'm essentially 'pure'. Whatever. I just want to be treated like everyone else...

-Crys

Current Mood: Disappointed...in myself.

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So, I figure I better go ahead and update this thing again with an actual post. I don't really consider that last post a real post. All I did was gripe, after all. :P

I've been working on a one-shot challenge for SublimeTrickster based on an image she drew. Only thing is...I have issues keeping things short. The thing is only half way finished and it's 15 pages in length (roughly 6,900 words). Even more troublesom is the fact that I'm making super slow progress due to my perfectionist tendencies. Every time I sit down to work on the thing, I wind up backtracking. Inevitably the material already written is edited, again.

*sweatdrops* I guess I'm just sort of anxious about this thing. I'm writing it from Inuyasha's POV, so I'm trying to make him sound believable and still get the point across. Plus, I keep changing the title...first it was called "Nobody Knows". Then I changed it to "Sealed Within Thy Heart", and now it's "Quite Quintessential". I think I like the current title the best. Unusual, you know?

Anyway, I'm so astounded! I found out today that I only work 14 hours next week. The entire time I've had my job, I've never worked less than 32 hours in one week. I'm so happy! Maybe I'll actually get something accomplished for a change?

And now I will grace you with something: I have to admit, I have this weird...thing that I find annoying. I cannot have anything on the left-hand side of the computer. At all. It bugs me to the point that I have to move whatever is there. I don't know why...I guess it's just one of those things that's weird about me. Of course, this is coming from someone who doesn't mind drinking warm water. (Yes, laugh at me. I know you want to!) And I can't stand bracelets, yet I wear a watch daily. How funny is that?

Oh, well...hope all my friends are doing well! ^_^ Take care!

-Crys

Current Mood: chipper

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Guess, what? As of 9 o'clock CST I turned 19 years old. ;) And my mother turned 48 years old. (Yes, you read right. I was born on my mother's birthday.)

Anyway, my mom, little sis (Steff), Bianca (a friend), and I did a few things. The main attraction was paying a visit to the local movie theater to see Click. It was very good, I highly recommend it to anyone who wants, or needs, a laugh. We ate lunch at the food court in the mall...visited some flower place that was drenched in the area's history. (It was so cool...there were some old buildings on the property that were moved from their original locations. Ex. One-room school house, old fashioned black smith's workshop, old well, etc.) And that's about it. The day turned out okay, although it could have been better...

Mother, Dad, and my older sister, Brandy, have been going at it. Brandy's whole family is pretty much angry with my mom and they refuse to really talk to each other...the worst part is I fear the reprecussions headed straight toward us. Apparently Brandy's kids were forced to call Mom to tell her happy birthday and Mom didn't take that so well. She claims she doesn't want anything to do with Brandy or her family any more.

*sighs* It's a huge mess...and I can see how both sides are in the wrong, but I'm staying safely neutral at this point.

Well, back to work tomorrow...hopefully this week should prove the last week I'm forced to work full-time! *crosses fingers*

-Crys

Current Mood: indifferent

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Wow...it's been like ages since I've updated this thing! (Oops!) The main story behind this being that I've been busy with the Recommendation List, then I was busy with the Nomination Report for a while. Not to mention, I recently started a job a week or two ago. I'm working in the bakery of a grocery store...and let me tell ya, be kind to the bakery workers! All they do all day is place pre-packaged dough onto pans so they can be cooked for your pleasure. Not to mention, I was hired for part-time work, but apparently we're short two employees...one person is on vacation and another one was rushed to the hospital, so no longer is able to work. I've been having to work full-time lately, my hours 12-8:30pm. When I get home, I'm exhausted and pretty much all I want is to hit the sack.

I recently made a hefty purchase at my local bookstore. My first check I placed half into my savings account (for college text books), then went and splurged on Inuyasha managa...since Fenik told me about quite a few differences between the anime and manga. I'm still reading them, but I'm really surprised at some of the events they altered for the anime. I had no idea! And some of the things...it makes no sense why they changed them, or left out the details. *rolls eyes* I'm looking forward to August, when the next Fruits Basket manga comes out...I'll have to make another trip to the bookstore then. ^_^

Anyway, that's about it...I'm happy, I'm off on Sunday! Guess what Sunday is, moi's birthday!

And on another note, Mother is starting to become annoying. She's badgering me about getting a boyfriend...which reminds me, I recently had a weird, uncomfortable experience at work. Some guy kept bugging me...he wanted my phone number when I knew nothing about him. When I flat out refused, he was just like 'Well, okay. I'll still try. I'm a patient guy. I'm not a bad person.' Uh, yeah...well, he may say that but I don't know anything about him! And I wasn't willing to find out...

-Crys

Current Mood: tired

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So, I have sold my soul in pledging to write a one-shot fic challenge for Sublimetrickster. I am to write something that contains the reference of this as one of the scenes.

Oh, and then there is the following, which I am supposed to finish within 2 years, but we all know that that is an utterly impossible timeline for me. The challenge was actually initiated by chibi_inu13, if anyone's curious...

( Nifty Table of Challenges )

Yes, let the torture begin...

-Crys

Current Mood: tired

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Whoo! I finally got a job...going back to H-E-B, only this time I'm working in the bakery instead of up front having to bag and do carryouts. (And I swore I'd never work at H-E-B again once I quit last year.)

Anyways, I'm alive...I sort of had this seperation blockade from the computer for a week and a half or so. The source being a few novels I was reading, which caused my interest with the computer to diminish. See, when I read books, I pretty much read them straight through. I spend practically all my free time reading until I either finish the book or move on to another one. So, A Great and Terrible Beauty and Rebel Angels by Libba Bray were finished, promptly followed by Lord of Snow and Shadows by Sarah Ash. They each took me about three days on average to finish, maybe less depending on if I was able to just lounge around and not do anything.

And...that's about it.

Oh, no it isn't! My fanfic actually has fanart now! Varethane drew me a pretty pic of Rune! *Bows to her great artistic skills* Rune--> [Link]

-Crys

Current Mood: happy

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I swear, I'm going to scream soon! That stupid virus going through the Yahoo! Groups has taken over my e-mail box and I don't know how to get it to stop. Messages keep popping up in my inbox saying crystal_whistle@yahoo.com has moderated messages sent to her groups.

I haven't sent anything! Grr...

I even scanned my computer using Norton Anti-Virus three times earlier. I'm at a loss as how to fix this problem. And I'm embarrassed that I was hit and it keeps sending out messages from me.

*Screams*

-Crys

Current Mood: aggravated

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So, life's been hectic lately and definitely not desirable. Had a cry fest the other day. My mother's becoming quite frustrated at my lack of employment. Her deluded mind thinks I haven't been searching, when the fact is I have. I've turned in like nine applications, starting back in May. No one called me. Is that really my fault? It's not exactly like I can waltz up to the manager and say, "Hey, the name's Crystal! I'm a hard worker, and desperately need a job. Hire me, I'm the best there is...what you will? Great!"

Whatever...looks like things are actually looking up. I used to work at H-E-B (for those who don't know, it's a grocery store), but quit. It was messed up, the managers refused to grant me my high school graduation day off, plus another day I desperately needed. I could have handled the field trip day, but graduation? It's not my fault most of the workers are teens and the alotted twenty day-off requests were used up. I put in my request as soon as I could!

Anyway...so, my big sis is a manager and just transferred to a new branch. I'm set up for an interview for possible employment in the bakery. *Crossed fingers* Hopefully it'll work out...my mother keeps threatening me, saying if I don't work this summer I won't have money for my textbooks.

Now, moving on. My family is weird and we have problems (many in fact, but I'm referring to an isolated case here). My little sis, mother, and father are on shaky ground. Currently I'm the only one on speaking terms with everyone in the house. Steffanie is 17 years old and been begging my parents to start drivers ed. So, they planned on doing the parent taught course, like I did. Only Steff really didn't want to learn from my dad, so my mom registers my little sis at the local Austin Driver's School the other day. Breaks the news to dad (who was going to teach her the instructional part) and he got upset. He's acting rather childish about it, actually. He refuses to talk to either my little sis or mom, even when they tried to discuss the situation.

Personally, I think his feelings are hurt, but even that's a stupid reason to act like a five year old who had his candy taken away. He even ran into my mom's room and claimed he has a year to live...and he was taking mom and Steff off of his list of beneficiaries. (I don't know if this is true, but I'm hoping not...)

So, our household has brick walls built around the rooms. It's like everyone (aside myself) is separated by the Great Wall of China.

So...other than that, I've been working on the task of updating that dang Recommendations List. I swear, someone sent in fourty-four recs at once...I'm still trying to catch up...

You know, I was reading one of the recs on the list, and it really stirred my mind into action. I love the whole 'Inuyasha-and-Kagome-have-known-each-other-since-childhood' plotlines. I've read many myself. But somehow, after so long, they all just seem to blur together until every story written around the idea is the same as the next. It's hard to find an original one nowadays, which makes me sad...'cause I find the idea extremely sweet. *sigh* One day, I want to tackle the concept and build a more original plotline around it. Perhaps, even mixing the idea with an AR plotline...though, I wouldn't dare tackle it now. I'm afraid my attempt would probably pale in comparison to the Great and Mighty Fenik. Plus, I'm concentrating on ALD, which I am super slow at writing...

Well...that's about it for now. Problems, problems, thoughts, and more problems...

Pray for me people! Or send a pixie to my house, or something...please!

-Crys

Current Mood: optimistic

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Ever have one of those nights where you wake up and you can't help but think "what the hell?"

Yeah...that was last night. I wake up this morning and apparently I actually dreamed last night, which is somewhat rare for me. I'm not sure why, but I usually don't remember my dreams. *shrugs* Anyway...moving on. I had the weirdest dream, in which paynesgrey, _midoriko_sama_, and del_kaidin and I were in a special group. I can't be 100% sure, but I think we were the only members of the Definitions Committe for the IYFG. Somehow I had been invited to join with them.

So, somehow quirkyslayer and Midoriko-sama were talking about me on the thread, and it wasn't entirely good. It was weird, like I was watching them, hovering over their keyboards typing up what they wanted to say. Then once I was through with my whole out-of-body experience, I responded to their somewhat disheartening comments...basically they didn't believe I was good enough for the committee and had serious doubts on how trustworthy I really was.

Anyway, the whole dream was weird. I don't even talk to any of them (except for Del occasionally) and I'm definitely not on any definitions committee with them!

Very weird, very weird indeed...I seriously wonder what they would say if they knew I was having awkward dreams about them. :P

-Crys

P.S. June is here! June is here! You know what that means? My birthday's only a month and a half away! ^_^

Current Mood: amused

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Yesterday was one of the worst days I've ever had. Literally. My mom got on my case because I hate driving, telling me that if I don't plan to ever drive the car, she could sell it. Somehow we went from discussing that to my future and how evidentally my mom is having problems with me, when she thought I'd be the last one she would. From there things just kind of spiraled out of control...

And I cried. She left angry, to go drive my little sis to drop off her job applications. I went to change, put my shoes on...and I was about to just walk out the door, to clear my head, when my dad says to let him know if my brother calls the home-line. So, I couldn't leave. I ended up waiting ten minutes or so, then quietly crept outside to visit with my dogs. (When I'm sad, I love going outside and just sitting with them, it helps me calm down and think things through usually.)

I stayed with them for a while, then I ended up on our covered patio, laying down in a torn lawnmower box, crying again. Mom and Steff tried to get me to come inside, but I didn't budge. After a while of just laying there, I ended up finally coming in, grabbing a blanket from my room, and heading towards my old room I had when I was a little kid.

And there I lay for a good half-hour, crying my eyes out and being utterly depressed over my non-existent happy future and personal issues I thought had been cleared up long ago, but apparently have not.

So, yeah...wasn't exactly a walk in the park.

*clears throat* Anyways, things are better now. Actually, I thought it was funny because my older sister, Brandy, she's a really religious Christian-- She won't even allow her kids to celebrate Halloween because she says it's evil-- apparently watched a news segment on 20/20. Evidentally, through backmasking certain songs you can hear hidden messages (which are supposed to be evil according to my big sis, but I don't entirely believe that). So, Steff and I were exploring and apparently in "The Nightmare Before Christmas" one of the creatures says 'Here comes Jack'. Reversed, it sounds like 'Ass Muffin'!

I cracked up laughing. :P I'm not sure if that was intentional or purely accidental...but its amusing either way!

-Crys

Current Mood: lethargic

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Ahh...I feel so incredibly lazy, as if I haven't accomplished much of anything lately. Well, I suppose posting the first chapter of ALD is something, but the second chapter has not been touched for a few days...

See...I was reading 'Thousandfurs', an IYFG nominee. I thought it was interesting, though I found it hard to get into since the fairy tale has already been Inuyasha-ized by Sublimetrickster in her 'Dog Skin'. Either way, the story caused me to have an unexplainable addiction to fairy tales, the authentic ones. I read Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, and a whole bunch of odd ones. I think the weirdest one I found was about this boy whose step-mother chopped off his head with a trunk. She set him on a chair, tied his head on, and placed a half-eaten apple in his hand. She told her little girl to whack him in the ears if he didn't give her a bite of the apple. She did and starts freaking out, crying. She thinks she killed her brother. Anyway...so it gets weirder, but pretty much the boy's father unknowingly eats him, he somehow is turned into a bird, and at the end his step-mother dies and he comes back to life.

Yes, it was very weird...

I was sick with some sort of stomach ache a few days ago. I spent practically the whole day sleeping. And with my unwell stomach stirring me on, I wrote the following. Ignore any errors or stupidity...I was sick. I might as well post it here to remember. :P


( QUIXOTIC )

Yeah...so I never finished it. I'm not sure this will ever be finished. :P I was mainly just using this as my way of venting my frustrations in regard to Sesshomaru/Kagome pairings. I so cannot stand them...and I started accidentally reading one yesterday. O_O

So, IYFG voting will end in a few days. That means the whopper recommendation file will need to be dealt with soon. Hopefully I can accomplish something before then, otherwise everything will inevitably need to be placed on haitus.

-Crys

Current Mood: calm

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I'm seriously debating...why are guys on Yahoo! IM suddenly swarming to me like a moth to a flame?

Seriously, this is really starting to bug me...about a month ago I had two guys IM me out of no where. One just wanted to have some 'fun' as he put it. I thought it was extremely disgusting and rude for him to look for a sex buddy online. I was not amused in the least. The second guy said he wanted a real relationship. Then last night I had some guy in my area IM me asking if I cared to chat. The conversation came to a standstill when he asked me 'How far have you gone with a guy?'...

So, why are all these guys suddenly messenging me!

Hopefully I fixed the problem. Apparently my public profile on Yahoo! was listed on the online member directory. I believe this was the reason for all of my incidents...so I will cross my fingers and hope that was the case. I'm getting sick of entertaining horny guys looking to hook up online. Augh!

Anyway...I did get my Inuyasha DVDs back, which I'm immensely happy about. :) And I traded in a few PS2 games and a DVD to a game shop. I received just enough money back to buy a manga. I bought Inuyasha Vol. 2, since mostly I only follow the anime and I someday hope to own the collection of manga. I'd like to be able to see all the differences from the anime from the manga, ya know? :P

Apparently in vol. 2, Yura has two arms ripped off, gushing blood, something we aren't privy to in the anime. And Sesshomaru doesn't just extract their father's grave-hidden-in-the-marble from Inuyasha's eye. No, he gouges into Inu's eye, blood is dripping from the said appendenge, as well as Sesshomaru's fingers.

Surprised me, that did! :P Eh, oh well...no brotherly love, ya know?

-Crys

Current Mood: complacent

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Oh, my freakin'...I just found Libba Bray, the author of "A Great and Terrible Beauty" on LiveJournal! I love that book! She barely had the sequal come out a few months ago, and I've been unable to read it because of school and other things going on. I can't believe this...I swear, this must seem like a blonde moment or something...

But, dang! I love her work! :D

libba_bray

*Happiness*

-Crys

Current Mood: giddy

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I'm kind of annoyed right now. My friend Bianca is apparently upset with my little sis, Steffanie, and me because we commented that a doll she liked looked like Michael Jackson. And it did, thus why we pointed it out...but she's being so petty and ridiculous about the situation! We didn't even mean it in a bad way, and I guess, yeah, looking at it from another's view point it could seem criticizing or insulting...but it wasn't meant that way at all. And to be upset over a stupid doll, that's just petty to me!

Steffanie believes Bianca's purposely ignoring her posts now because of the situation. I swear, I really feel like telling her off or at least telling her to grow up and stop acting so childish! It's a freakin' doll, its importance in life is so minimal. I'm sorry if we inadvertingly hurt her feelings over a doll but she needs to get over it. Hey, I'm sure Michael Jackson's over the fact that people point at his nose all the time, you know?

Some people just take things too personally.

So, Steff sent Bianca an e-mail apologizing last night. I checked this morning and apparently the post has been deleted. I swear, if I wasn't ranting here I might explode on her, whether online or in real life.

Some people are just so irritating to deal with...

-Crys

Current Mood: annoyed

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I've had to deal with a jerk the last few days. I lent him my Inuyasha DVDs because he said he'd lend me his Cowboy Bebop ones if I did. Finished the Cowboy Bebop ones and yet I was still trading the Inuyasha ones with him. So, school was set to end today and I had told him over a week and a half ago I wanted them back before then.

I thought I had made myself perfectly clear.

So, he fed me bull I found hard to believe. I was supposed to meet him the Thursday before last to get them. He stood me up. When I messaged him about it, he replied he ended up coming into town late the night before and sleeping until 5pm. From the sounds of it that translated to: "Yeah, so I went out partying the night before I was supposed to swap you. I really didn't care we were supposed to swap, the responsible thing would have been letting you know I wouldn't meet you in advance, but hey, what did I care? I was too busy getting wasted off my ass! What a night!"

I was extremely irritated and fed up with him so I messaged him, probably using a tone a little more forceful than necessary...but still. I wanted to get my point across. So, he finally agrees, but then turns into an 'ice-man', cold as the Anarctic with me.

I went ahead and apologized to him for the tone I used, but I don't think I was in the wrong. He was the jerk who refused to do the responsible, adult thing and keep his promises. At the very least he could have worked with me more. He acted like he just didn't care when I got them, even though he claimed otherwise.

I finally received them today.

I am never lending out my Inuyasha DVDs to someone I don't know that well EVER again!

On a good note...I'm finished with finals and this year at Texas State University as of today! :D

-Crys

Current Mood: irritated

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So, I'm supposed to be studying for a final exam...but I'm not, obviously.

I did a very bad thing today. I was sent a message stating the following:


( Forwarding Messages )

Now...normally, I'm not one to believe junk like this, but just because I didn't want to pass up the opportunity if it was real, I sent out a dozen or so e-mails. Thing is I didn't know anyone, so I just tracked down random people's e-mails and sent it through. Got two replies back, obviously the people were furious with me for sending this. One called me the F-word, and another girl sent me a reply I didn't even bother to read. Man, I'm never doing this again! It's so not worth the trouble! T_T

-Crys

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